This piece Value was made about the middle of March. This was after I had a significant social conflict with people I was closely associated with. I felt they showed great disrespect and disregard for me as a survivor. This moment was the last straw in many ways, because I had been limping along trying to look normal for far too long after being re-traumatized by reporting my father to his church. This was the moment I totally closed in and stopped doodling and blogging for about two months.
I just want the pain to stop.
I just want the hurting to stop.
I just want to not be seen as a fool.
I just want to believe people can value me, even when I am different.
I can not change that I am different. I value myself the way I am.