How to heal after childhood sexual abuse

light-of-godI just read How to heal after childhood sexual abuse by Jodi-Anne

I was not emotionally able to read all of the post. But I skimmed quite a bit and read in detail other parts. These are the parts that stood out to me. Continue reading


My New Blogs

miathriver avatar2Hello all my followers. I have divided my blog posts out to several different blogs based on posting topics. It did not seem right to have a blog post about Homeschooling one day and then the next day have a blog post about being a Survivor of Abuse all on the same blog. Continue reading

Puppet Sister

Puppet So he dances her out of her twenty years of isolation.  Her twenty years of only talking to him.  Away from her cult.  Away from his friend, her cult leader.  Like a puppet on strings.  And because everyone is so happy to see her, he will instantly become their hero. Continue reading


So much truth is written here. So much truth. So much like my life.

Re Blogged from Source: INNER DWELLING by Patricia Grace

“The ‘family’ causing the anguish, the same ones who extinguish a child’s light, continue to keep dark the horrors of her childhood throughout her adult life.

In their selfish need to maintain their own innocence, and the pretense of a family not riddled with the sadistic crimes of incest on an innocent little girl, they are completely willing to sacrifice that child’s life, her entire life. Continue reading

Because of You… To My Sisters

Because of you (and Sister #2) I never feel I can trust my friends.  Because of you I am waiting for my words to be misinterpreted and used against me.  Because of you I expect to have thinly veiled criticisms from everyone.  Because of you I never want to be vulnerable again.  Because of you I do not feel I can be respected how I am.  Because of you I expect the kind words are all lies. Because of you I don’t believe peoples claims of support.  Because of you I expect to be betrayed by anyone close.  Because of you I believe my friendships are false. Because of you I do not believe people can believe me.

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Re: Forgive me… (Seriously!? This is all you got?) from my DH

45c9c-dhprofileLetter to my Sister#1 from my Dear Husband.

To Sister in Law #1,

I get it. After watching conference you wanted to feel better about what you did to Jeanine, so after a few minutes of thought you barfed some half-baked apologetic sounding ideas on to your key board and sent them.

Not OK.

If you actually re-read carefully the first paragraph of your initial message you will realize that you have not apologized for any of your actions (no one in your family ever does). You have instead apologized to Jeanine for her own emotions (which is what everyone in your family always does), while simultaneously admitting that you don’t even know what those emotions are. Continue reading

What did I do today?

what-did-you-do-todayThat feeling when you get down to the end of the day.  You are exhausted.  And you cant remember what you did all day.  Instead all you can see is the to-do’s  you are surrounded by that you did not get to.

In the past I have blogged about my to-done’s so that I can feel a sense of accomplishment.  Instead of feeling frustrated at all I did not do. Continue reading