It comes to mind that I am trying to avoid using the term sexual abuse. My abuse was explained away in a hundred different ways, anything but sexual abuse. While I knew my father was sexually inappropriate to me, I could not say I was sexually abused. Until I was triggered by an abduction in my neighborhood. I then relived the worst moment. The moment of undeniable sexual abuse. I no longer could pretend it was something simpler then sexual abuse. But even still I seem to have a brain block from using the term here I have written many blog posts and this is the fist one to even use the term sexual abuse in it.